Thursday, May 28, 2015
Saturday, April 18, 2015
"Why don't you guys start serving the food, Madhu, and I'll be there in just a few minutes?" Roshni said, and pretended to call someone on her cellphone.
"Aww! I know who you want to talk to! But it's just a day, sis, and you'll be with him forever!" Madhu exclaimed, emphasizing on the word forever. She then waved bye to Roshni and got back inside the house.
Roshni gulped and put her phone down. I've got to think through this. Why am I having these jittery thoughts? I thought the day I would marry Siddharth would be the happiest day of my life, and yet I sit here, a day before the wedding, having second thoughts? Whatever went wrong?
Roshni started to think through some of the things that had started to bother her lately. Nothing came to her mind. Maybe it's just the stress with the wedding she thought. She tried to cheer herself up and started to feel better in a few minutes. She then decided to get back in and enjoy with her family, the last few hours of her spinster life.
Just as Roshni got up from the swing, her phone started to ring. Siddharth's smiling face greeted her on the screen. She smiled, and answered the phone. Before she could say anything, Siddharth said "Roshni, we need to talk, now. It's about the wedding. I am...well...I don't know, I just want to meet you now"
To be continued...
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
Thursday, February 12, 2015
Take it from someone who has had a lot of experience with deaths in the family: Time doesn't stop, "I can't live without you" is a sham 99 out of 100 times and if you think it gets better once you cry it all out, you are wrong, because the pain never truly goes away.
Dealing with something as permanent as death requires a lot of maturity, patience, hope as a virtue and a normal life to return to; of course friends and family who are there for you at your time of need are no less than the other things I just mentioned. The process of dealing with death begins with complete misery of the loss of a loved one, the fear that you will never get to see, touch, hear them again. This slowly turns into anger, questions of "why", "what is the purpose of life" etc. start haunting you. And all this while, it is important to be surrounded by people who can make you talk, smile, laugh even; no, it is not a crime to laugh after you have lost someone. Repeating these processes for a while (duration varies with people) and then slowly returning to the life you led before the unfortunate incident is the most important step of the dealing and healing process; as this gives you something, a purpose, to go on with life.
Most of the things I talked about here, are more so for sudden or totally unexpected deaths, not those of, say, a very old grandparent who wasn't keeping well for quite sometime.
Death is painful, inevitable, permanent, hard hitting; but deal-able.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
When I see people around me cry over petty reasons, I think it is funny. It's not that I don't do it at all; I do it too, but I would like to believe I have reduced it a lot over the years. The reason I find it funny is because of this; call it trick if you will; that I adapted a couple of years back. I think it all started when I started watching episodes of "The Universe". The sheer mention of distance between the Earth and the Sun; the age of Sun; the life span of Sun; all this was enough to make me feel like humans are such a small part of this huge, boundless space that exists around us; around Earth. I always remember these facts and try not to waste my time here on insignificant things like gossip, egos, fights, complaints etc. For people who do that, maybe the boundaries of their minds and thinking are just that; they cannot think beyond daily life with its nitty-gritties, day to day chores, fights and complaints and cribbing.
When you expose your mind to limitless possibilities, and the insignificantness (yet significant, definitely, because of what humans have achieved over centuries, which any other life form hasn't been able to, at least on Earth) of our existence, maybe then those things like daily banter and issues also start seeming insignificant and hence not worthwhile.
Try it and let me know if it works. We can make this a much better place to live if we ban these very things like chaos, fights and egos from our lives.
Monday, December 29, 2014
Like something is going to be taken away from me
It isn't something that I can catch hold of
I know because I tried and I failed miserably
And the swaying coconut trees
I realize there are some things that can't be stopped
They just cannot rest in peace
Time has a promise to keep
It cannot stay still
It must, into its own shell, go deep and deep
Thursday, December 11, 2014
From within all the chaos that goes on in the mind
Sometimes comes a voice worthy to hear
That you just stop whatever you are doing, however important
So you can hold on to that voice, dear and near
That is your best friend, that knows the best for you
Though it appears once in a blue moon
It makes sense, this voice
Holds your hand and gets you out of your cocoon
It may sometime seem to have clarity issues
Like walking in and out of a tunnel
But the feeling you get when you listen to it
Is far far away from dull
Though this is the only thing you want to keep doing
You have a life to return to
With a promise from the fleeting voice to appear again
You float back to what is it that you do